Goodbye my Beautiful Bozzy

Saturday, 19 November 2011
I'm sorry that I've been absent the last few days. Unfortunately, as my title says, we lost our beautiful boy Bozzy (Boris) yesterday.  He had gone down hill the last couple of days and yesterday we made the heartbreaking decision that it was time for him to leave us.  He was just short of his 21st birthday so had a wondefully long life but, at the moment, that doesn't make things any easier. 

My husband, Jon, had him for nearly 19 years when turned up on his doorstep and never left.  I've known, sorry knew him for nearly 9 years and lived with him for the last 5 years of his life.  Those 5 years have been the most enriching and love-filled 5 years of my life because of that little man and that is why I'm really struggling not having him with us anymore.

We do know that it was the right thing to do (his vet agreed we'd brought him in at the right time) and we believe that Bozzy knew what was happening and was at peace with it because, for the first time in days, he settled into my dad's arms as we were getting his basket and he stayed there.  He was virtually asleep by the time we were called into the vets and didn't really stir much when we placed him on Jon's lap for one last time.  I was stroking his head and talking to him as he left us for Rainbow Bridge where he will wait for us to all be together again.


This poem has been helping us come to terms with things:

If It Should Be

If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep
Then you must do what must be done
For this last battle can`t be won.

You will be sad, I understand,
Don`t let your grief then stay your hand
For this day, more than all the rest
Your love and friendship stands the test.

We`ve had so many happy years
What is to come can hold no fears.
Would you want me to suffer? So
When the time comes, please let me go.

Take me where my needs they`ll tend
Only stay with me until the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time that you will see
It is a kindness that you do to me
Although my tail it`s last has waved
From pain and suffering I have been saved

Do not grieve it should be you
Who must decide this thing to do.
We`ve been so close, we two these years
Don`t let your heart, hold any tears.

I hope that you will bear with me in these first few difficult and emotinal days and weeks as we come to terms with the loss of our beautiful boy.  He was more than just a pet to us, he was part of our family, our little boy and there is a huge whole in hearts and lives without him.

xx

13 comments:

  1. Aunty Sue said...:

    omg that peom has brought a lump to my throat we were spared this in 2003 as mine went down hill while on holiday and he was fine before we went but my neighbour was so brave and did the deed but we would have done the same. i now have a puppy and cant think about that day hopefullt many many years from now. big big hugs,

  1. Paulagriff said...:

    So sorry for your loss, i know its hard when you lose a much loved member of the fur family. Run free at the bridge Bozzy xx

  1. Sarpreet said...:

    I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Please take care of yourself.

  1. Sue said...:

    Oh Sarah you poor thing, I know exactly what it's like, you get so attached to them, and like you say they are part of your family. Thinking of you at this very sad time.
    Take care.
    Sue x

  1. Heike said...:

    ohhhhhhhh, that is very sad and i feel with you. I lost my sweet Sternchen last year in november too. I wish you all the best, but in your heart Bozzy is there forever.

    Big Hugs
    Heike

  1. I'm sorry about Bozzy. :(

  1. Beth said...:

    Oh Sarah, I am so, so sorry for you and Jon, I am actually fighting tears writing this as I know how you must be feeling. Pets are such an important part of a family and people without them don't really understand what a huge part they play. But you totally did the right thing and he will have known that and loved you for it. Just enjoy all the many happy memories you have.

    Lots of {{{hugs}}} at this sad time

    Love Beth xx

  1. Oh Sarah, I am so sad for you and Jon. Please know that I am thinking of you and wish I could be there to give you a hug.

    Love Jocelyn XOXO

  1. coldwaters2 said...:

    Oh Sarah my heart is breaking to hear of your loss, it was a very good age but as you say that does make it any easier. The poem is so beautiful and so is Bozzy he looks a very wise and handsome chap, just enjoy the memories. Take care.
    Hugs
    Lorraine x

  1. Aaawww I've just read the poem and it's so beautiful.
    Take care.
    Kelly.x

  1. GoonerGirl said...:

    Sorry to hear about your loss and the poem bought a tear to my eye.. Chris xx

  1. May said...:

    so sorry to hear that Bozzy has gone, You have dear happy memories of him and you will miss him,your poem to him is Beautiful Sarah, lots of Hugs May x x x x

  1. Clare said...:

    What a beautiful boy Bozzy is and what many happy and loved years he had. I am so sorry and can only imagine how your heart is still breaking for him. I have two babies and a stray and losing one of them would be like losing a child (I cannot have children so Bert, Simone & Blackie are my furry babies!). I notice that you since adopted another cat but could not keep him. There is no right or wrong time to move on with another animal and it was not right for you. You are still grieving badly. One day you may be able to move on and only you will know when that time is. Bozzy will be waiting for you at Rainbow Bridge and you will reunite one day. Godbless Clare xxxxx

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