Where to begin?

How I wish I was back on holiday!

I've been unable to do any of the washing as our machine has packed up!! I put a load on and let it go through the cycle as normal. When Jon got it out, he shouted "Shouldn't it be wet?!" Turns out one of the valves has packed up. We got an engineer out the next day who put a new part it, but it turns out his was faulty and we need a to wait now until Monday for another engineer to come out with a working part.

Things with my mum have also got worse than I ever imagined possible. She's become violent and attempted suicide on a couple of occasions, but still the hospital say that she's okay. At this very moment, she's waiting to be seen at a mental health hospital in Norfolk after hitting my sister and dad with a poker as well as going for them with a knife. I feel so angry as my dad was told to take her away and now this has happened. My sister should not have to be going through this, she wouldn't hurt a fly. I'm also angry with my mum. I know she's ill, but to turn round and tell the police that she's not violent, that she doesn't mean it, I find hard to believe.

She didn't want me to go away on holiday. On my 30th birthday, all she wanted to do was to take all her pills and end it.

This is why I haven't been around (as well as the holiday). I've been trying to get my head round everything and it's so hard. I'm at a point in my life where I should be happy and enjoying myself.

Thanks for listening.