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Sunday, 13 July 2008
How I wish I was back on holiday!

I've been unable to do any of the washing as our machine has packed up!! I put a load on and let it go through the cycle as normal. When Jon got it out, he shouted "Shouldn't it be wet?!" Turns out one of the valves has packed up. We got an engineer out the next day who put a new part it, but it turns out his was faulty and we need a to wait now until Monday for another engineer to come out with a working part.

Things with my mum have also got worse than I ever imagined possible. She's become violent and attempted suicide on a couple of occasions, but still the hospital say that she's okay. At this very moment, she's waiting to be seen at a mental health hospital in Norfolk after hitting my sister and dad with a poker as well as going for them with a knife. I feel so angry as my dad was told to take her away and now this has happened. My sister should not have to be going through this, she wouldn't hurt a fly. I'm also angry with my mum. I know she's ill, but to turn round and tell the police that she's not violent, that she doesn't mean it, I find hard to believe.

She didn't want me to go away on holiday. On my 30th birthday, all she wanted to do was to take all her pills and end it.

This is why I haven't been around (as well as the holiday). I've been trying to get my head round everything and it's so hard. I'm at a point in my life where I should be happy and enjoying myself.

Thanks for listening.


  1. Annapurna said...:

    Did your mom ever get psychiatric help, I mean like talking to a psychiatrist once or twice a week? It seems like she wants something and not getting it and getting really frustrated about it. Someone might need to help her learn how to control her emotions and hopefully somone can do that.
    Feeling for you and your family.

  1. NattyK said...:

    Sarah, I am so sorry to hear things with your mum have gotten worse. You are right you should be just enjoying life. I hope your mum gets the help she needs and things start to get better soon. My thoughts are with you. x

  1. Nikki said...:

    Oh sweetie...I am so sorry things are so hard for you at the moment.
    I hope your Mum can get the help she so obviously needs very soon, for all of your sakes.
    Hope your washer gets sorted soon.
    Love Nikki

  1. Jo said...:

    Oh Sarah, my heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry to hear about everything that's going on and I suppose the washing machine was the last straw! Try to keep smiling, things can only get better. Big hugs. Jo xx

  1. You poor thing, my thoughts & prayers are with you and your family. I hope things improve for you soon.

    Take care

  1. Andrea, said...:

    Oh Sarah, I am so sorry to hear about your troubles, I can't imagine what you are going through. I will thinking of you all and hoping that things will improve really soon. Take care

  1. jami said...:

    How are you? Are things getting better?

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